HOLD on*

Its exactly one year since my brother took his life. (well when I wrote it was.. the 28th)

I still don’t understand the sadness that pushes someone to do this, so therefore since I have no new insights, I will share this…

David Foster Wallace.. too was cool and sad, and too committed suicide.

This chick, also an inspiration… also suffers.
basically I still don’t know anything, or understand anything and probably never will, but to everyone who is sad, know that this too shall pass… its how it works. Things change, its the way of the world… this goes for being happy too..
Don’t act to harshly, and don’t be afraid to ask for help when life gets you down.

bah… what do I know*
be kind
peace + love*

a thing of beauty..

http://vimeo.com/m/#/23114063

My heart shall bleed right again…

There is no way I can write this without it sounding flippant… but this week I buried my only brother; he committed suicide… I have no answers, only a broken heart…

but even is these severely kak times… life is amazing.. this ebb and flow, the ying and yang…

I am blessed with the most amazing friends and family who heart me and have truly wrapped me up in love and kindness this past week.

Its difficult to stay sad when so many amazing miracles of life are happening around us..
Two of my best friends are both pregnant with what would invariably be two of the most epic rock star babies in the world… they will kick it* and another two awesomeness of friends got engaged yesterday!
**dear friends Riehna & Wilmich here is a tjooon for you guys.. I wish you guys the most epic future together!

Botter en vriende is liefde*

OMG life is festive, making wedding invite for school mate.. eventhough she wont allow me to put tattoos and dragons design, its loooking festive, will post when its done and dusted… I am also excited by the fact that soon my house will be devoid of camping equipment (I don’t camp) and some few land rover accessories… That was the river, this is the sea, and I am so much of a blissfully happy seal.. not clubbed, just restauranted. Things change, people change and all the important people in my life are quite content at this point in life, and that gives me joy… less drama, more layed back sunday afternoons drinking sauvignon blanc and much of laughter, eventhough winter is coming. When I was younger I loved the the crazy peaks life took me on, now… I like zen. I like cars that work, and jobs that don’t end in tears and friends who are dependable… this is good, and this is me happy*

This from… I steal, sorry love this pic